Thursday, January 27, 2005

I'm trying to relax in the wake of all the stress that seems to have befallen me within the last 36 hours. Between homework assignments, a mild case of depression, and now a debate tournament underway, I'm just not sure I'm in top condition. Probably do in part to the fact that, in a minor form, my greatest fear for this semester has almost become realized and it's only the end of the third week of classes--the feeling of losing control.

It's not fully realized yet, and that's the saving grace in all of this. I still have time, hopefully. Between everything there is room to breathe, to relax, to take things apart piece by piece and bit by bit and realize, perhaps, that they aren't as bad as I think they are.

My only hope for this weekend is not to rid myself of the stress as it is cyclical in nature, but rather to learn to bend and not break.

Oh, yeah, and to kick Carroll's ass at the final tournament in the northwest this year! I'm ready, I am.


Amanda said...

Hey Wayne!!
I just wanted to say hi! I always thought you would do something dealing w/ international politics or some sort of political profession...a lawyer perharps. You are such a good speaker/writer. I know you will find your way, but if you feel computer science isn't right for you, then you should go with your judgement. Not knowing what you want to do with the rest of your life must be scary, but have no fear things will slowly begin to fall into place. Live for the moment, don't let your college years slip away because you are wrought with apprehension.
If it makes you feel any better, I bombed another quiz in organic chemistry. :-) --by the way, that doesn't make me feel any better!! It's all good though. They are just quizzes, meant for practice--I understand the material, so I'll do fine on his test. (or at least I hope and pray that I will).
Don't worry so much, Wayne. Life has a way of playing itself out. And remember, you have friends that care for you. Feel free to talk to me anytime you need to...I'm here for you.

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