Better By Nightfall

I finally got an e-mail from Marty. Things seem to be going well again. I'll just have to play by ear until I return, I guess.

Now, I must deposit my monies...

Well, my inform is well underway now. Hopefully this topic will prove to be worth my time and effort. I doubt anyone else will have it, but then again, someone on my team had my topic last semester at the fault of Marty. Not that it really mattered last semester. After all, that speech sucked. The topic was good, but the speech I wrote was horrible.

Still, I'm starting to wonder if I should've e-mailed Marty about my topic again. I know I should e-mail him to keep him up to date, but lately his lack of response has been annoying me. It reminds me of last semester when I e-mailed him my speech topics and later my speeches and asked him to read through and edit them as he saw fit and he never said or did anything about them.

It wouldn't annoy me so much except that during my exit meeting at the end of last semester he told me to e-mail him and the other coaches to keep them updated because I'm so far away and that "they'd respond."

Aside from Erin, no one has responded. I must note that Lacey has, but she's not a coach. (I'm thankful for both of them, though) ;)

Which is starting to make me question Marty's little speech about "each member is only as good as the rest of the team." If that were the case, wouldn't the coaching staff be more willing to help and respond to the students? I'm not sure. I'm not certain, but it's almost like I have to prove myself before he'll even respond to my e-mails. It's starting to remind me of high school debate with Mrs. Hooley. Ugh. I can't bother but think about how annoying her class was every time I see her, hear her name, or think about her. She only liked students after they won their first trophy, students the rest of us aptly named "Trophy Bitches." I'm starting to wonder if Marty follows the same policy...

*SIGH* Maybe I shouldn't bog myself down so much by thinking about this extraneous stuff. However, I can't help but think that this isn't extraneous. It means something to me. Yet, at the same time, it's been taking its toll on me too. Lately I've been thinking about that stupid tournament in Seattle. It was just a tournament, but it keeps coming back into my mind. I've been having this recurring dream about it too. It's similar to the same one I had weeks after that tournament, but it is set in the present when I return to Idaho. It's the same feeling, words, situation, everything. In my dream I feel hopeless with ferocity to prove, but as the dreams reoccur, the ferocity seems to fade. It's strange too, it's almost like my body's being taken over by something else. I honestly don't know. It is just a dream, but it is weird that it's been coming back as of last week and hasn't gone away.

I don't know.

I guess I should continue what I'm doing and see what happens when I get back. Continuously reminding myself the reason I'm still doing this...


Post Script: On the upside, I finally got paid!! A nice big check for $810, with 64 dollars cut for taxes (I needed that extra money too, Bastards!). Will be depositing it shortly and going about the business I planned to do a while ago.

Only, I want the CHECK WITH MY MONEY!

So, OU decided to send me the check with my money instead of direct deposit. Why? I don't know. Personally it really pisses me off that they made me fill out a direct deposit slip and give them a voided check only to have them do the opposite by sending me checks that I have to cash. Normally I wouldn't complain. Money is money, after all. However, since I'm only here for three more weeks, it angers me because I'm probably going to miss getting my last two pay checks since I'll be back in the states.

Why is that a problem? Well, I don't have an account with a bank in the state of Idaho. All of my banking is done out of state. Usually this isn't a problem, except when I have to cash checks. Since the checks are usually sent to my "permanent address" here in Germany, my Dad has to send them to me at college for me to sign them. Then, I have to send them back to him so he can then take them to the bank where they will be cashed. Needless to say, I won't be getting about a fifth of my money until September. Thanks for helping me out OU! Really, I couldn't be happier.

On that note, it is my last week of work with OU. Not out of anger for not getting paid yet, but rather, for break, my trip to Dayton, and then back to college. A grand total of eight weeks of work with OU. It's been fun, even though they've taken forever to pay me. I now have a new found respect for college administrations in general, especially the people that have to work with ignorant, retarded, asshole students. I know I'm not in that league, save maybe naive about certain aspects of student financials and housing placement. Though, I do have to note that some college administrations can be evil as well. I attribute this to stress though. It's not for lack of trying, they do enough helping the students who don't seem to get it. At least now I can say I've seen the from both sides, and now, hopefully, know how to tread it properly.

Woo! Yes, I'm almost on my way there. Aren't you excited? I know I am.

Here are the important dates [ times are e-mailed ;) ]:

Saturday, August 14th: Depart Germany for Chicago

- Arrive in Chicago and head to Dayton!

-- In Dayton/Beavercreek until Wednesday August 18th

Wednesday, August 18th: Depart for Boise

- Arrive in Boise and chill until the apartments open!

Friday, August 20th: Move into the apartment!

- Probably visit some friends and get a haircut! XD

For those of you that got the times, respond in e-mail to me. I don't want stalkers to hunt me down or anything ;)


And NO, I still haven't gotten paid for working with OU. (7 weeks now)

Wow! Tonight was interesting. I'm not going to divulge much, but let's just say that my brother and I are at ends right now.

I can't wait to leave. This house is driving me crazy and I just want to be somewhere away from Brandon.